ok im back.
nothing special happened for the past wks.
life is as mundane as before.
prelims results are out - they suck.
it sucks to hv zero improvement despite more efforts.
i don't see how efforts put in is proportional to results obtained.
maybe wrong study mthd.
less than a month to THE THING.
life is gonna be more hellish than before.
but it makes no difference to me.
my life has always been this hellish and boring.
a planned out timetable is useless.
unless you really stick on to it.
there's whr the challenge comes in.

sch has officially ended for us.
again, it makes no difference to me.
i've chem EVERYDAY.
ok except sat and sun.
but they're days whr i hv to complete my chem hmwrk.
chem is too much.
i don't even hv time for other subjs.
will you stop screwing up my life?
i don't detest chem.
so don't force me to detest chem.

my heart shattered on sat.
haha friendship is a very vulnerable thing.
u can make friends in one sec.
or lose all ur friends in the nxt sec.
whatever it is, i hope its just a misunderstanding.
sometimes i wonder,
what if the msg didnt come to me?
wldnt i be kept in the dark forever?
haha i bet u guys will gossip abt this after u read this.
its hard to mend a broken heart.
sorry but just give me some time to recover.
i hope we'll grow stronger after this.

home is no longer a place whr i can find comfort in.
it has becomed a place for me to slp only.
no different from a hotel.
thats the reason why i always mug outside.
yeah it may be stupid to travel so far away to sch to mug.
but i don't hv a choice.

alright this is such an emo post.
not directing to anyone though.
just trying to get the thoughts out of my head.
maybe the tone in some parts is not right,
so dont be overparanoid over it.
talk to me if u're uncomfortable with it.

rahh what the hell is happening to me?
i feel like i've changed.
heck, i'll be myself again after As.
so meanwhile, pardon me if i give u pissed ans or annoyed looks.

10/07/2007 10:37:00 AM ·